Lighthouse at Horseshoe Pines

People think I'm strong and brave - but I'm not. My God is my strength - He is a good good father who loves me so intensely and He is carrying me through this. I surrendered my life to Christ and He is taking better care of me than I ever could! There have been so many blessings along this heartbreaking journey there is no denying that GOD IS IN CONTROL.....Elijah and I could not be in better hands!!! I miss my baby - we may be in different places but the same God holds us both in his loving embrace.

If you would like to send cards and condolences, they can be sent to our home, 4123 Horseshoe Dr, Cedar Falls, IA 50613. Thank you all for your support! We love you all!!

Elijah - Jehovah is God "We should call him Elijah because God took Elijah up to heaven" Colton (age 8) Paul - Small or humble He was small in size but mighty in impact and love

Elijah was taken away this afternoon.  No words can describe where we are right now. I can't even get anything real out right now. I want to share but not there yet. But soon God has been good to us thru this. Even thru the pain the blessings are apparent. Love you all and thank you so much for the support. We are planning on having a service at 10:30, Wednesday at Prairie Lakes Church

The whole thing is so surreal. Just 2 weeks ago we found out that something wasn't right. Now just 14 days later, we sit with Elijah. Amber is again impressing all the nurses with her quick recovery. It will be a long process, due to Elijah's head size they had to cut through some muscle tissue. Amber is taking some pain medications so she is remaining comfortable. It will be a long process physically, and a forever process emotionally. I have no idea what to expect next, or even what to want.  We continue to pray to God for peace and understanding as  attempt to process all they has happened.

Amber is doing well, in recovery. She's loving on her little man, Elijah Paul.  His time with us is short but his impact will live on. 

Her body is ready. It says it's time... Too​ bad the doctors have so much to prep for and are on their own timeline. Amber is extremely strong and her body wants to do it is way, unfortunately that's not the plan this time

Everything is happening very quickly. Baby is transverse and head is too large for natural delivery. Amber had been actively laboring all day and is now dialated to almost 5. Within the next half hour going to the OR

Looks like scheduled C-section for tonight

More news updates will come later, but looks like we are heading to Iowa City on Thursday.

Well, where do I begin? This past week has been an emotional roller coaster and ultimately nightmare. We have gone from wrestling with the logistics of twins, since Amber was getting too large too fast for it to be only one little blessing growing in her rapidly expanding belly. How would we handle an even larger family than we were expecting? How would Amber handle 2 precious joyful bundles at once and continue to maintain any kind of normal life with the other kids? Then we  entered the hospital, not yet realizing that our lives were about to make a huge course change. We hadn't even be to consider that there might be really something wrong. God has always blessed Amber with an amazing easy pregnancy. Her body was designed to produce perfect, wonderful, amazing little human beings Then the ultrasound... Just one in there. That by itself was shocking, we were convinced that we were going to have to find a way to live life with 2 babies, sounds impossible but God had always h...

Today we went to Iowa city Hospitals and got confirmation that it appears Baby has a fatal condition and most likely not survive once born. As difficult as the diagnosis is, we know that God is in control, even if we don't understand or agree with the outcome